Brees, a prominent member of the New Orleans arts community and founder of the Krewe of Kolossos and the Bearded Oysters marching club, was at an artist’s residency in West Virginia when her father called to break the news of her mother’s death. It was painful, but not a surprise, she said. The last time Brees saw Nathan was for Mother’s Day. Her mother had already endured two psychiatric hospitalizations by that point in the year, and was a few weeks away from her third. Nathan was also suffering from a host of physical ailments including tremors, headaches, insomnia and nausea. “It was really sad to see and really painful. It was like she was 100 years old all of a sudden,” Brees said. “I told my boyfriend, ‘I don’t think I’m going to see my mother again. I think this is it.’” What did surprise Brees, however, was that her mother used a firearm to kill herself. Nathan was vehemently opposed to guns. Last October, she changed her Facebook profile to a picture of a gun with a red slash through it. But once police returned Nathan’s possessions to her family, which included her cellphone, her choice of a gun made sense. Among Nathan’s last search topics on her phone was “how to hang yourself.” When Brees typed those words into her computer and hit enter, she was taken aback by the breadth and detail of information available. She found multiple sites and blogs providing meticulous, step-by-step instructions, including the most effective type of ligature to use, the most lethal heights from which to fall, and the expected time it will take to lose consciousness and die. The instructions, however, came with explicit warnings that if done improperly, an attempted suicide by hanging is likely to result in paralysis or permanent brain damage. There is only one sure way to kill yourself, the sites advised: a gun. Brees believes that once her mother read this, it led to her final online search: “Gun shops in New Orleans.” The shop she ultimately chose was among the top five results. “I looked at the reviews of the store and they had very good customer service,” Brees said. “I’m glad they were nice to my mother, and I’m glad they treated her well. I’m glad that the last people that my mother saw were super polite to her.” One question lingered though: How could a person who had been institutionalized three times for being suicidal, and whose hands shook so badly she could barely write her own name, purchase a firearm?